The Blackangel

Tits.

Not well due to some kind of open wound in my right arm pit that looks like a vagina. Dermatology doesn't know what the hell to make of it, so they're sending me to the surgery clinic this coming week. Maybe they can tell me something. It smells like rotting flesh, and is leaking some kind of fluid. I can't wear anything cute, because I have to keep it hidden.

I had a macaw that actually would call people "asshole". He was a dick, but it was funny as hell when he did that. It got to be considered a badge of honor for him to call you one. I think I have over 30 of those badges, and I'm proud of every one.

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If you're talking Amazon, fuck that. I'll stay in town. If you're talking the woods around my house, then I'll take the woods. I've lived in drug dens and shooting galleries. I've been in gang fights. There's one fight that I don't know if I knocked the guy out, paralyzed him, or killed him. I cracked him at the base of his skull with a hammer. He dropped and didn't move. That's when my set got the hell out of there. But like I said, I don't know what the outcome from me hitting him was. I never saw anything in the paper or on the news. So I don't think it was anything too serious.

I remember seeing Pet Rocks on the shelves. I always wondered why in the hell I would buy that when I could pick one up in my yard and paint a goofy face on it. But those damn things sold like crazy. I guess crack was a lot more popular back then.

I've played several of them, and while insanely difficult, they're fun as hell. The original on NES was a masterpiece simply due to its difficulty. It's something gamers today even have a hell of a time with. But in the 80's when gaming was SOO much simpler and the objective was so much smaller, this kind of difficulty was something no one was able to deal with. Second place would go to Battletoads.

With some games I'm a hardcore gamer. With others I'm a casual gamer. It varies from game to game for me. Some I play for hours every day, and others I only play on occasion. Some I rarely play anymore because I have played them so much that I know every last thing about them, and there's no real fun left. Their only purpose for me is to keep my hands busy and eat up time.

I'm just a very private person. There are many things about myself that I don't talk about here due to that simple fact. Some that may change peoples opinions of me, regardless of what they think right now.

The libraries here only allow 2 hours per day on their computers. I spend a minimum of 6 on mine. Also they have blocking programs in place which really fucks some things. There was a kid a couple years ago that was doing a report on breast cancer and was at the library researching it. She tried o the computer to look it up but since the word "breast" was in her search it was blocked. The librarian booted her out of the library for "searching pornography". Her parents filed suit, the librarian lost her job and her certification. Now if you tell them what you're searching and why, they'll open up the search restrictions on the computer you're at. Hell even looking for the best ways to prepare a chicken breast for dinner is blocked.

How would you even know? You don't live here. You aren't experiencing the attacks republiKKKlans are making against Democrats and minorities. There are Hispanic families that have yet to be reunited because Adolf spread them so far and wide that they don't even know where their family went. The LGBTQ+ community is still facing laws that promote discrimination. In many states if two names even remotely sound the same sex, bakeries can tell clients to piss off for their wedding cake. The republiKKKlan party is trying to force a seizure of power to take over the country and put us all under a dictatorship. We'll be no better than North Korea if they get their way. Anyone who isn't a white, cis, straight, xtian, republiKKKlian will be imprisoned by them for some made up bullshit. They are wiping their ass with the constitution, and pissing on the bill of rights. They're out to destroy this country. Why else have people been emigrating to Canada, UK, Mexico, and other countries in droves? Because they're power hungry tyrannical traitors. That became a proven fact by the terrorist attack on January 6th.

I'm at a complete loss of what I could even say here. These things are coming more and more unraveled by the second. I am honestly at a complete loss here. I mean can they legally even do that? Scratch that. They don't care whether or not it's legal.

The phobia is bad enough that I don't want to be sedated in the hospital again. So I'm not going to risk it until I have confirmation from my girl that there is nothing for me to worry about. When she plays it again, I'll see what she says.

I'm always awake by 6:00AM at the latest. Mainly because my body hurts from laying in bed all night. So I don't really have a choice but to get up. But then considering that I go to bed around 7:00PM, due to my body wearing out, it's about 11 hours. I need that much sleep just to face the day. Muscular Dystrophy is a major bitch. The only person I an think of who might be able to appropriately describe it would be the nerd. I would love to hear him go off on a rant about it.

I know how to survive in the woods. I've done it all my life. I talked about it in this post on another thread. I have street smarts as well, but I hate being in town. I just don't like urban areas. I like rural areas. It's much more relaxing and peaceful.

When I was a kid, I would take a hatchet, survival knife, and a .410 into the woods and rough it usually for about a month. Sometimes even longer. I would build my own shelter, purify my own water, and hunt/fish my own food. I absolutely loved doing it. Obviously I can't now. But remembering that, I remember always wanting a cabin that was way back in the woods. So far back that you thought my driveway was a side road. I have the same feeling today.

Unknown citizen. Less people notice you, hence more people leave you alone, hence less people interfering in your life.

Automated home. I could use something to clean and cook. Driving however, I like being in control of that. I like going out for a drive just for the solitude and the time alone away from the house. It clears my head and gets me centered. I don't want some automated machine taking that little bit of joy away from me.

Considering I was homeless for 3 years and grew up bottom of the barrel poor, I could easily live without heat & AC. The internet didn't even exist when I was growing up, and was something only institutions could afford when it first started. Which means until I was about 14-15 I never had it. So I could probably go without it again if I had to. But to choose, I would give up the heat and AC. The internet is such a huge part of life now, that it's almost unreasonable for anyone to go without it. EVERYTHING is done online. Not just entertainment, but all forms of business. Unless you're a low level employee, your job directly requires internet. Often it goes home with you, so you need it there. What ever you customer/client is, they have gotten to where they expect shit instantly now, so no business could survive without the internet. As sad as it is, it's become a requirement of daily life just to survive.

If we're talking about collecting, I collect two things. Zippos and skulls. With the skulls, I find beauty in them. I find beauty in death. And I like to surround myself with it. I have skulls ranging in size from zebra and buffalo, all the way down to parakeet and pocket gopher. I have mammal, reptile, bird, and fish. That is if megalodon teeth count. But enter in my personality, and the fact that I'm a practicing Satanist, people often think that I have sacrificed the majority of these animals to the devil. First off there is no such thing as "the devil". It's not a creature, but a metaphor. A turn of phrase. Second, sacrificing something in that manner is strictly forbidden in Satanism. If what you're doing requires blood to be shed, and I can't for the life of me figure out why it would, then the blood must be your own. We respect the sanctity of life. The first tenet of The Satanic Temple in fact states: One should strive to act with compassion and empathy toward all creatures in accordance with reason. That means, among other things, that you don't harm or kill without reason. I don't have enough interest in people to waste my time on them doing either, but I will kill or die to protect a nonhuman creature. I'm not a vegan, or even a vegetarian. I do eat meat. But that doesn't mean that I will stand by and watch cattle being abused without leaping into action against their abuser. And believe me, his/her body would never be found. The Zippos however, even I can't really explain that one. I just like them. They print so many different designs on them. I love the artwork. They're amazing, and some sets are just awesome. I'm currently collecting the Chinese zodiac set. Every year they release the animal of that year. This year will be Ox. I just have to wait until it's available. I'm also looking to finish up the Greek zodiac set. Luckily I have Capricorn, which is my sign. It was discontinued after it was finished years ago, before I started collecting. But I find one now and then. But there are also pairs of lighters that are limited edition. Just look at the two below. Day Of The Dead, and Jungle Animals. You can also have them customized, which I have done 3 times.

I'm not able to play it, so I don't even know what the hate is centered around. Something about homophobia if I remember right?

Only children play video games. I would like to see one 7 year old child play RDR2 with parents consent. Or give that same kid a copy of Hatred and tell the to go nuts. Games have a "T" and "M" rating for a reason. And only a couple games in history have gotten an "AO" rating. Give one of them to your 5 year old. Then tell me only children play video games, you pretentious bastard.

My birds Apple and Baby. Neither of them shut up as it is, and if they could actually speak human words, I would move out into the yard and never come back in.

The video is region blocked. To answer your question, I've practiced the black arts for several decades with complete success. Take that how you want, but I can tell you that it is real. It's not Merlin type shit (that's fantasy), but it is real.