The Blackangel

It's also hard as hell on your kidneys. I've had kidney stones twice, and UTI's often, so I don't need any more problems with that shit. I simply refuse to take is anymore. Besides my doctor wants me to take acetaminophen anyway. DENGUE FEVER! HOLY SHIT! YOU'RE LUCKY AS HELL THAT THEY CAUGHT IT EARLY!

I can't say it's my absolute favorite all around, but one is: The world's greatest tragedy / Souls who are not remembered / Cannot survive It's from Hold On To Memories by Disturbed. They have 2 different videos for it, so I'm linking both here.

Not a fucking chance it's logical. There are hundreds of other measures cops can use to quell a protest. Rubber bullets, powerguns that shoot hard rubber balls about the size of a tennis ball. Sure those are brutal, and do still involve opening fire, but they are also non-lethal. And that's just two. That would give them the time to make an arrest. So killing protesters is killing for the sake of killing. But then again, with the way criminal punishment seems to go in a lot of African countries, death may be a preferable option. I don't know a lot about African politics, or even which countries death would be preferable and more humane as I haven't looked at the data in probably 15 years at least. So my information could easily be outdated and completely wrong.

Everyone here knows that I've been talking to Canada about asylum. But I've also been looking further from these shores. Across the pond. That may be just an American term, I don't know. Mainly Ireland and the UK. People here also know that I'm a part of the LGBTQ+ community. And you know how toxic and dangerous it is for me to even check my mail. So I'm curious on the standing towards my brothers and sisters over there. A YouTube search can show you thousands of videos covering just a tiny bit. Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, Transgender, Queer, Questioning, Intersex, Asexual, none of the above, all the above, it doesn't matter. We all have a target on our backs. And virtually all of my brothers and sisters are looking for a place safe enough where they can check their mail without a red dot on their forehead.

It's unfortunate that before he died (which was criminally negligent homicide on the part of his doctor in my opinion. more below) he couldn't do any kind of meet & greet with fans. The danger posed to him, and the godlike worship that posed danger for his fans could have ended up with lost lives. People dropping dead from being able to simply be within arms reach to shake his hand or simply say "Hello" could easily have overloaded said fans heart and caused them to go into cardiac arrest and die on the spot. There are several celebrities I've met, and several others I want to meet. But, despite being in pure shock about a shout out that @Rain Dew got for me for Yule (xmas to you) in 2021 from Roger Clark (RDR2 Arthur Morgan) I don't see them all that different from myself. They still eat, sleep, and shit the same as me. The difference is that they just have a better job. Especially since my crippled ass is stuck in a fucking wheelchair for the rest of my miserable life. more: Propofol to fucking sleep?! There are options that are nowhere near the lethality Propofol posed. It's fucking used as an anesthetic which requires someone called an ANESTHESIOLOGIST just to get the shit right so that a person DOES NOT DIE. Yeah, I'm pissed. Medical malpractice is something that really pisses me off, having been a victim of it myself. Not going into a lot of details, but a doctor prescribing an extremely dangerous dosage of multiple meds all at once? That alone could have killed me. This would have been 20+ years ago. Just a few months after I got clean. There's more instances, but I'm not getting into them. So I don't give a fuck who the doctor is or how well they're thought of, one fuckup like that means they're a goddamn QUACK and need to lose their license and be publicly outed as a QUACK and why.

Random question popped into my mind reading your takes on this. What are your thoughts if a person wanted to emigrate to the UK? In an all around sense, and if they are LGBTQ+?

Hopefully, unlike here, you don't have one of the major candidates quoting Mein Kampf. Our own Adolf 2.0 has been quoting Hitler for several years now, and praising his ideals. So we have 2 choices. A Nazi, that will work against us in every way, or a politician who will work FOR us. While I'm a hardcore liberal Democrat, I don't have much faith in either of our 2 main parties at the moment. They keep running around playing politics in the rest of the world, and ignoring what we need to fucking fix here at home. Also with the goddamn Electoral College in place here, our votes don't mean any more than toilet paper. We don't decide the vote. They do.

I'm still feeling like roadkill that's been tap danced on by Bigfoot. I'm alive though, so there's that. I try to dip in as much as I can. But it's been almost a month since I've been able to take a peek.

Well depending on the delivery, caps often didn't do shit for me. Grass almost always doesn't do a damn thing other than get me a little stoned and make me hungry. After 20+ years, I've built up a tolerance that blocks much of the intended effects. Even though it's legalized here both medicinal and recreational.

Naproxen over the counter is Aleve. That shit works wonders. I try to keep it around the house because it's stronger and it's safer than ibuprofen or straight up aspirin. Yes, it has aspirin in it, but there's other shit in the mix too.

There was nothing MJ couldn't do. I watched a documentary on him one time, and it showed women having to be taken out on stretchers just because they actually saw him with their bare eyes. One girl was clutching her Thriller album in her arms and could only say "Michael" all the way to the hospital. I don't think there's any superstar, whether they're an actor, musician, athlete, or anything else that has ever had that kind of effect on a person. It's also been well documented long before he died, that if he ever ended up in a pinch and needed cash, all he had to do was release another album. And with his talent, he could do that in his sleep. The closest any musician ever could have come was back in the 50's with either Elvis or the Beatles. But if you compare them side by side, there is no comparison. Michael Jackson is so far above them that comparing them is a waste of time. You can disagree on who you would prefer to bring back, but you can not manipulate facts to try to make them fit your opinions. Michael Jackson was probably the greatest musical performer we will ever see. I still would want to bring Chester Bennington back, but that doesn't negate the facts in relation to Michael Jackson.

Trust me women are often a lot more deceitful. With men, you know immediately what they're after. Sex. With women, it's much more difficult to tell when you're being played. We don't go in strictly for sex the way men do. So there's no telling what a woman is going to do to you to manipulate you for what she wants. But considering that my tits and pussy are all men in my past have ever seen, I have no use for them. Girls you can keep them men all for yourself. I'll stick with women.

No clue. As long as a bruise anywhere else I guess. After all this shit passes, I’m gonna begin putting spikes on the soles of all my shoes to try to avoid this happening again.

No one cared. I was the world’s whipping girl. From every angle was incessant abuse beyond what most could fathom. My uncle did try to kill me after all. But that’s how life is. No one cares. It doesn’t mean shit how friendly or hard working you are. You’re never going to earn what you’re busting your ass for because no one gives a shit about you. You never lose anything, because you never had anything to lose in the first place. When you got nothing, you got nothing to lose.

An open mind is a great thing, but it can also easily lead to becoming a victim. If you’re too open minded, it can lead to you being used and abused by people you thought cared about you because you gave the an undeserved benefit of the doubt. There is too much of a good thing.

They've been around for well over a century, which means that in all that time they have DEFINITELY learned how to stay in the game.

Wil wasn't fired, he left the show for personal reasons. Something to do with family. That's when Grady came in and started hosting the show.

Considering that English (or more accurately American) is my native tongue, the vast majority of music that I've heard has been in English. But I can say that in the last couple years I've developed an interest in music that is in languages that I don't speak. I'm curious. What is your native tongue?

Does this include street drugs like blow, or dust?

So I’ve been laid up for the past week and a half because of my dragon. @Rain Dew and I were bringing in a new terrarium when I got hurt. I have a wooden ramp at my front door so that I can come and go through that door. I didn’t know that the ramp got slicker than ice with just a little bit of rain. I put my foot on the ramp to start going in the door, and my feet flew out from under me and I landed hard on my back on the concrete. The tank landed on my leg, so it wasn’t damaged. We went to the ER a couple days later because breathing hurt like hell, and I found out that my left lung is bruised which is causing me pain that I could never have imagined. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, and coming from me, that’s really saying something. It’s also caused me flu-like symptoms as well. I’m not sleeping, because I have to sleep sitting up. Moving any joint other then just my fingers makes me scream. I had hiccups earlier and they were so painful that I was contemplating suicide. I’ve broken bones in the past and not known it for more than a week. This pain is almost more than I can handle.

When I said “in the beginning” I meant thousands of years ago. When people knew nothing about the world around them, and started looking for something to explain everything. That is when religion began forming. The result is a downfall of civilized man. Everyone then and now wage wars and genocide all because of a different religious title. Religion is one of the worst plagues on this planet. To get to true morality and compassion, religion has no place in our lives.

They can be entertaining from time to time, like this one that I'm posting here. But for the most part, they really have no value. They drop the persons status in my eyes. Grow up. If you’re so afraid of someone talking shit, then move into a cave and become a hermit. Making a diss track takes away from the quality of the album as a whole.

I’ve written a lot of unconventional poetry. It’s a good outlet for me. It tends to be pretty dark. It’s about experiences from things in my life.

I’m Satanic, but I’m still going to say that the right wing and their bastardized version of religion is pure evil. It’s used as a license to do whatever the hell they want to those who disagree with them. Religion gave us morality in the beginning. But religion also gave us slavery in Egypt, the crusades, Spanish Inquisition, and Salem witch trials just to name a few of the more notorious examples. If religion actually makes people live a good, moral life, then I’m all for it. Practice your religion. Treat people with civility. If at some point they earn it, treat them with respect. The sad thing here stateside, is that religion is a cancer that has become airborne and therefore contagious. Unless we as a people start pulling heads out of asses, we’re fucked in every sense of the word. If I could take a magic gun, and kill religion, I wouldn’t hesitate in any way. Have your religion, but the moment you begin the condemnation of others, you lost not only the battle, but the entire war.

There actually is justice once in a while!